Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Baby A, Baby B and announcing Baby C

Our confirmation ultrasound was on January 18 and we were still pretty much in shock about our twin babies and I was feeling pretty horrible. Morning sickness will eventually need its own post! But again, another long ultrasound. The tech was super nice and she confirmed Baby A & Baby B. She went on and on about how doctors really like to see the 2 sacs and how its less risky.

We saw the 2 hearts beating. It was amazing! We went to lunch and were feeling pretty positive. There is 2 of us, 2 of them, plus big sister. We can totally do this!

Maybe we can all fit them into our Honda CRV if we get big sis a booster car seat. A double stroller, less risk, we can so do this!

My husband went to work, and I went home to take a nap before attending a kindergarten tour. Then my phone rings and I get woken up from my nap. The doctor asks me, "Are you over the shock yet?" And I said, "Yeah, I think we are doing pretty good!"

Then she went on about how the pregnancy will be very high risk and the chances of complications has increased because they are sharing a sac.

I had no idea what she was talking about and I reminded her that the two babies were in their own sac.


"They didn't tell you?....Tell me what? I'm so sorry they didn't tell you, but there is a 3rd baby. There are 3 babies, 3 different heartbeats, and 2 babies are sharing a sac, and one is by itself. That's why I asked if you were over the shock. I'm sure she (the tech) was in shock herself and wanted the radiologist to take a look first, I'm sure that's why she didn't say anything."

I was speechless and how could she not tell me!!! I kind of thought she was super duper almost too nice and she had this nervous laugh....how can she not tell me!!!!

The doctor continued about the risks of the babies sharing a sac and possibly a placenta and how I will be meeting with the specialist who will discuss everything with us and our options.

I was still speechless. I was not laughing anymore, I was crying. And not so much because I was pregnant with 3 babies but the thought of losing one, or all three of them was too much. If doctors are supposed to prepare you for the worse, this one did a pretty good job.

Then I had to call my husband and tell him over the phone! He didn't believe me at first. He thought I was playing a joke, but when the tears started, he knew I was serious.

I couldn't forget about the kinder tour for big sis. I don't know how I managed to get there but I did. I don't think I have been the same since that phone call.

Sunday, January 30, 2011

First there were two...

My first appointment was on January 11, 2011.

I was so nervous, part of me still could not believe it and I was afraid that they would say, "Sorry, not pregnant." I can't believe I still had those thoughts considering I was experiencing morning sickness like never before.

I also remembered my not so fun first appointment/ultrasound with my daughter. The doctor told me it looked like a blighted ovum. I was sent for more testing and then had to wait a couple days. Horrible and traumatizing, but luckily doctors were wrong again.

This time....

I felt so sick and tired during that first ultrasound that my eyes were closed for most of it. I prayed a lot. Finally, the doctor pointed the baby out. Complete happiness.

Thank you God.

Then the Dr. had this look that I cannot describe, she did a lot of squinting....followed by, "Ummmm wait..."

I closed my eyes and prayed, "God please let me accept whatever she says."

And she said, "Looks like there's 2."

My response: "Nooo! You are lying!"

Dad's response: "Two what??"

"Two babies", she said. She kept on squinting, and looking at the screen, and taking pictures. This was the longest ultrasound ever. She told us there were 2 different sacs, 2 heartbeats, and yes 2 babies. She went on about how 2 sacs were better than one, and how it is less risky. She was pretty sure but needed to send me for another ultrasound, one with a fancier better machine, just to confirm the two babies.

Complete shock... We did a lot of laughing, the nervous type.

My husband had to go to work and I had to go pick up my girl at preschool and go on with our day. I think it was a good thing that there was no time to talk. We didn't know what to say to each other.

Like I said, lots of laughing.

We had decided to only tell family about the pregnancy. But with these news, how could we not?! After the family knew, we started telling a few close friends. My husband was a little bit against this, he wanted to be cautious, but realistically, if something did happen to the babies, I realized that I would need my friends and a lot of support to get through it.

It was fun to share with friends. They shared our shock, excitement and disbelief. And yes, we had to answer many, many times whether we were on any type of fertility treatment. The answer is NO! There are twins on his side of the family and every one's prayers were finally answered. We wanted a baby so much that God is blessing us with two. Maybe my daughter prayed for two. She so desperately wants to be a big sister!

We had to wait an entire week before the confirmation ultrasound. We did some talking about the future but not as much as I would have imagined. I think the shock of two babies lasted the entire week.

And there was that small chance that the doctor did not know what she was talking about, right??

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

We are pregnant!

Three babies!!! And to answer the first question...no fertility drugs!
So far, very overwhelming and barely 8 weeks!

Let me back up to when this roller coaster ride began.
It took almost a year to conceive my daughter in 2006. Back then, we had already started to see a fertility specialist who at one point crushed my world. You never seem to forget the stats. Over the telephone, I heard, "You have a 4% chance of conceiving on your own."
A few weeks later, we beat the odds. And now it has happened again, but times 3!

It's been over 2 years of praying, wishing, hoping and waiting. I had begun to accept that perhaps this is how our life was meant to be. An only child, and finally, I was okay with it.

We also moved to a new state away from all our family and friends. And the move finally pushed me to get rid of a lot of baby stuff. In the back of my mind, I had a strong suspicion that this is when it would happen. The hope was always there. After a few months, I stopped obsessing about it.

And then on December 16. I took a pregnancy test. I had no reason to take the test, no late period. I just had this feeling. The same feeling I had with my daughter. And once again, I was wrong and disappointed. I let my sadness consume me for a couple of hours and then managed to pull myself together to pick up my daughter at preschool. I knew deep down I wanted another child.

Days went by, Christmas came and went, but my feeling did not go away, and neither did the tenderness in my chest. I sent my hubby to buy another test, and I took it so quickly that no thought went into it. I was an expert at peeing on the stick.

This time, there was absolutely no waiting, those 2 pink lines showed up right away! I could not believe it! I thanked God right away, and ran off to share my news. I couldn't find him! I think he had forgotten what he bought or what I was doing because it took him way too long to figure out what I was talking about. All I could say was, "Yes, the test, it's positive!"

I took 3, maybe 4 more pregnancy tests....stopped some meds, caffeine and scheduled my first appointment! And that first appointment was when the real ride began!